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1. I will probably try to write 10 thoughts. I don’t know if that means I’ll try to go under or above, but I’ll try to write 10. Anyways the first is this: i wonder how I came about living this life. How I’m so invested in ministry, how I’m going on this medical trip and doing these things. Facebook and instagram gives you a little window into the lives of others and im just pondering over how i stepped into and built this life.
2. I ALWAYS wonder how my life and how differently I would have turned out if I had… uhm. How do I put this… parents that… are more american???
3. I am addicted to writing.
4. I read something the other day about how you must be uniquely and totally you, but not so that it is mentally isolating you from others. As I look back on my life I seemyself adjusting and changing parts of myself to other people… and then when I got sick of it, I tried to be rebellious and taught myself to be insistent and obnoxious about who I was.
I thought it was what I was SUPPOSED to do. To have pride in who I was and , wasnt and join in on the evil throng of hurting (or sometimes just simply wicked) crowd that constantly threw themselves around in vicious ego wars…
But it wasnt an ego war for me, I thought thats the way I as supposed to be, to INSIST on myself and ASSERT myself.
How stupid it is to think about it now. How awful it is, how ugly, how UGLY it is.
5. Im still healing and Im not really waiting for a day where I can be completely free, in this earthly life, either… i am just… idk
6. I like that His mercies are new every morning. He is good.
7. The fact that ones dreams of how he wants to live his life are so fragile and may be highly unlikely due to MISTAKES, LACK OF MONEY, or at the cost of compromise (of values, time, memories, other things…) SCARES ME. i know its idealistic, but I cant help feel this fear to my bones
8. I want to paint a picture of Peru. The long braids and skirts, the architecture and brick buildings, the cows, and most of all, the beautiful multicolored buildings.. the faces of these houses.. you know, theyre all pale and washed differently and color differently but… somehow it works…
9. I’m really excited for this year at Davis. i cant wait to see what will happen….
10. The last thought is this… i think of life as a balloon or some sort of fragile, beautiful and complicated contraption that sort of whizzes or floats by you, right next to your face, and you only have one second to reach out and catch it… and if you don’t do it right, the very tip of your finger will never even graze the surface of life.
This is not a thought announcing an agreement of influence of carpe diem. Not that it denies it.
I just feel like Im scared that I wont get life right- by my own fault, or something helpless that I could not change, but yet could have, in some bizarre or perhaps simple, but elusive way
Ok, there. That’s what I meant… life is so elusive…
At least that’s the way it seems for me.
I am afraid. Constantly.
I need prayer, please.
I am so exhausted and have had such a rough start to the semester. I am just beat down by all that I have going on. Wednesdays are my busiest days each week - I am literally on the go from 6 am to 8:30 pm. No breaks.
I just need a good night’s rest and a sense of renewal.
I have also been really hard on myself lately and I need to learn to have grace with myself.
Some Even Better Questions
- 1 What do you regularly do before bed?
- 2 Who would you say is there for you when you really need them?
- 3 If given the opportunity, where would you time travel and who would you bring with you on the adventure knowing that you're not going to alter anything in the present?
- 4 Is there anyone you miss a lot?
- 5 Favorite drink? (Alcoholic and non-alcoholic)
- 6 Do you smoke weed or cigarettes?
- 7 Would you help the last person you called/texted hide a dead body?
- 8 What would you take as a weapon if you were to go into a building to assassinate a crime lord that killed your family? Would you be discrete or go in and start killing people until you get to him?
- 9 What are three norms that you absolutely hate?
- 10 Who are your top three idols?
- 11 If you could go back to any point and time and do things differently, where would you go and why would you change things?
- 12 Your Pokemon team consists of six Pokemon, which six Pokemon would you choose to be on your team?
- 13 You have the opportunity to meet any musician, dead or alive. Who would you meet and why?
- 14 What was a constant thought that passed your mind today?
- 15 Are you going to school? What are your classes like/what's your major?
- 16 Favorite video game?
- 17 Something you know you shouldn't have done, but did anyway?
- 18 What is a television show that makes you want to strangle someone?
- 19 Most fucked up situation you have ever been in?
- 20 The last time you were hugged and you cried?
- 21 Who is your favorite character from a film?
- 22 Is there a film you can watch repeatedly and never get tired of it?
- 23 Make a list of bands/musicians that you recently started listening to.
- 24 Do you think you would do well in a zombie apocalypse?
- 25 If the world was ending and you had two hours before the Earth was destroyed, what would you do?
- 26 What was your first kiss like?
- 27 Favorite curse word(s)?
- 28 Who do you think would visit you if you were in the hospital?
- 29 What do you think of most when you're falling asleep?
- 30 If you had to choose between immortality, wealth, or any six concert tickets with the opportunity to go to any of those concerts from any time period, which would you choose?
- 31 What do you wish you could be doing right now?
- 32 Who is your favorite person in the world right now?
- 33 What do you think it would be like to have been born with a tail?
- 34 Do you like your name?
- 35 What would you do if two strangers started fighting in a convenience store full of people?
- 36 What are you looking forward to in the near future?
- 37 If you had to use three songs to define yourself, which three would you use?
- 38 HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT CAPITALIZATION LIKE THIS!?
- 39 How do you feel about humanity?
- 40 What's the most embarrassing thing that has ever happened to you?
- 41 Do you have a Tumblr crush? What would you do if you had the chance to hangout with them?
- 42 What do you want to do with your life?
- 43 Which of your friends is the funniest?
- 44 Where do you go when you feel like shit?
- 45 What is holding you back from doing something you really want to do?
- 46 What state do you live in?
- 47 Would you ever hangout with someone you met on here?
- 48 When was the last time you got home and actually fell asleep withing ten minutes of making contact with your bed?
- 49 What really turns you on?
- 50 What is a memory that you're very fond of?